Ok deepest darkest confession time. My bf thinks I insist on condoms because I'm paranoid about STDs and pregnancy. That's sorta not true... I mean, sexual health is obviously important but I'm also on the pill and he's my only partner so...

The real reason which I barely even admit to myself is that the only other guy I've slept with was my ex (who is black). We didn't use condoms at all (we got super lucky because I wasn't even on the pill when we first started going out!!). Anyway, I sorta have this idea that I only want black guys...maybe even just my ex... to cum inside me. Like, my ex left me for another girl and I love my bf but I guess I still want my ex at least sexually? 

Sometimes I accept a white guy proposal to date, just so I can cheat on him with bbc behind his back and dump his ass after a week. They never get near my pussy, may you wonder who does?I think my taste for submission goes one step further, i always try to rimjob, lick the feet and the armpit of a black man before he fucks me. The humiliation of these acts makes sex even dirtier. Love it to feel inferior and love the face of these guys watching a pretty girl doing those nasty acts.